Friday, September 18, 2009

50 Fights

I've noticed a lot of pod pilots get very attached to their ships. It's almost as if their ship is a loved partner or something. They go through elaborate ceremonies with building, naming, and flying their beloved.

And then they lose it in act of violent destruction, and their life, for a brief moment, seems like it's come to an end.

They get angry, they grieve for their loss. Their beloved ship... gone! They don't know how to cope, or how to continue with their somewhat miserable life now that their beloved ship is destroyed.

They eventually get a new ship, and go through the same elaborate processes as before. They invest not only their ISK into the ship, but also their energy, their love. And so the cycle continues.

It disturbs me that these people have such an attachment to great lumps of metal. I know it's not really the ship that they love, it's what that ship allows them to do. The freedom, the prestige, the excitement... A ship gives them good feelings, and they love it for that.

The loss of a ship is equated to a loss of those good feelings, and so they grieve.


Excuse the language, but... it's pathetic. It really is.

Do you mourn the loss of a broken screwdriver? Or a bolt? No, of course you don't. You get a new one when you need to, knowing it's just a tool. It doesn't even emotionally register with you.

A ship is a tool. That's all it is. This galaxy is harsh. Violence is a way of being, and with violence comes destruction. Particularly the destruction of ships.

If you have mourned the loss of a ship, and found yourself in misery, ask yourself - am I emotionally stable? Is this ship any more significant than that round of projectile ammo?

You'll be forced to conclude that no, you're not emotionally stable, and no, the ship is no more significant than ammo.

Your ship IS ammo, being used to kill your enemy before they kill you.

In the great struggle for survival, for the achievement of our goals, a starship is simply a tool for us to use to achieve those goals.

The next time I see someone cry and mourn the loss of their ship, that they took through many elaborate, emotionally-binding ceremonies, I'll wonder what kind of sick love affair they had with that lump of metal, and maybe their other tools too.

Are you in love with your ship? Will you mourn the loss of it?

If you find these thoughts as disturbing as I do, there's only one thing you should do.

Take a frigate into lowsec and look for a fight. Don't care about winning, because you're only caring about the fight. You actually WANT to lose your ship.

Do this 50 times. No, I kid you not. FIFTY TIMES. Lose your ship 50 times and you will realise it deserves as much emotional investment as your screwdriver.

I don't care if you're an industrial miner that's been sitting in Empire space for the past 4 years, and you've only lost your ship once to rats. I don't care if you've ventured into low sec and lost your ship from pirates and then woken crying in your new clone back in Empire space, vowing to never go back into the darkness. I really don't care.

You owe it to yourself to take lots of frigates into lowsec and look for fights. Sure, you don't have to initiate the fights if you don't want to be a pirate, but if you hang around, pirates will find you, and they'll help you understand how much of a tool your ship is as they destroy it for you.

50 fights. No less.

When you've had 50 fights, and you've lost your ship maybe 50 times (sometimes you might even win, depending on how you've fit your ship), then you'll be able to look back at your past and realise how much of a crybaby you were. And you'll never cry over a ship again.

Save the tears for when you lose your real loved ones. Don't waste them on tools.


  1. Lifetime losses = 238. What do I get for having almost five times the requested amount of losses in my career? I could really go for a keychain as a prize or something.

  2. My lifetime losses are about 80, or something like that... that's over 2 characters, with about 3 on Alexia

  3. 171 kills, 32 losses lifetime (according to battleclinic). This post gives some really sound advice. While all my ships get a unique name, I must say I've stopped caring when I started to earn enough ISK to afford what I fly many times over. But I also for a long time looked down on T1 frigs and cruisers. Pirating in the FW areas really changed my outlook on that.

  4. 287 v 57 here and this was a good post that got me thinking so I will post my response on my blog... :)

  5. Agreed, inthink this is gonna be the challenge me when I get my pc setup again, suicide runs are fun :D think I'll go 25 rifters 25 punishers for it, or some AFs if I can get my skills up enough to use them before I use up 50 ships :D

    - Noir Avlaa

  6. Well said. I know losing a ship can suck sometimes, but that's why you shouldn't fly one if you can't afford to lose it...

  7. Hey, the other day, I lost Cydonia Mensae in an engagement against two Sleeper BSs. I limped back to base in my pod, dug another Myrm hull out of the corp hangar, called up the original design from EFT, and spent some time digging up and/or buying the parts necessary to rebuild it. It's not like we're hurtin' for resources, and the new Cydonia Mensae works just like the old one did.

  8. Lifetime losses: 47, to 97 kills. Both numbers are bound to change, as I just moved to Lowsec again.

    Great post. I still give my ships somewhat unique names (Although I started numbering them, im at my 15th rifter right now :P), and I don't really care about frigates (What sometimes makes for great fights, like when I almost killed a brutix in my rifter). The only thing I grief about is loosing more expensive ships (For me, thats BC and up :P) to stupidity on my part (not turning off point when deaggroing ftw) or lag.

    And now excuse me, I need to loose 3 rifters.

  9. I'm doing something wrong. Instead of loosing my rifter, I killed an omen and whored on the mail of a cane.

    Well, i'll keep trying.

  10. Let us know how many wins you've got by the time you've got your 50 losses. :)


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